Alex came and visited and it was fantastic and fun…but it’s over. We’re over. I’m single now.
No matter how planned and mutual this breakup was, its been in the works since September, it still hurts a bit. Part of me wants to listen to sad songs and cry. But more of me, a bigger part of me, wants to live my life. Go on walks. Read books. Hang out with my family. Have a blast with Madeline when she comes. Go to South Africa. Do awesome stuff.
Last April I met a guy who I didn’t expect to meet, who came into my life and changed it. We dated for about nine months, we kissed, we laughed, we had lots of sex, we met each other’s families, went to each other’s houses, went on tons of adventures and loved each other a lot. And now its over.
“This is the way the world ends: Not with a bang but a whimper”
“That was the year I got left at the altar, it was the year I got knocked out by a crazed bartender, the year I got fired, the year I got beat up by a goat, a girl goat at that, and damn it if it wasn’t the best year of my life. Because if any one of those things hadn’t happened, I never would’ve ended up in what turned out to be the best job I ever had. But more importantly, I wouldn’t have met your mother. Because as you know, she was in that class. Of course, that story is just beginning.”
For me that year was 2010. 2011 was the year where everything that I went through in 2010 and before really fucking paid off.
It was the year of tons of friends, a great boyfriend, tons of traveling, graduating, new job, moving back in with the parents.
2011 was so far the best
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I made a mix
Download link here
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=ZLKKTTYZ
Its for my sister, so its a wide range of music, probably most of it y’all already have
Soon to come…A mix for 2011
1. Bloodbuzz, Ohio - The National
2. Bizness - the Tuneyards
3. Eli the barrow boy - The Decemberists
4. Feeling Good - Nina Simone
5. Hey Ya - Obadiah Parker
6. Can’t go Back Now - The Weepies
7. South for the Winter- River City Extension
8. My Slumbering Heart - Rilo Kiley
9. The Temptation of Adam - Josh Ritter
10. Back in Your Head - Tegan and Sara
11. Waltz #2 - Elliot Smith
12. The Cave - Mumford and Sons
13. This Year - The Mountain Goats
14. Falcon Settles Me - Rogue Wave
15. Help I’m Alive - Metric
16. Heart Rate Rapid- Metronomy
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THISSSSSSSS! i miss my childhood :(
too accurate
YESSS.
There are not words for how much I still want to get slimed.
(and now we’re all going to pretend that the obvious sex joke isn’t staring us in the face.)
I actually did get slimed at Disneyworld. It tastes like pudding
Most action I saw til I was 18, Heyo!
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Relationships don’t work the way they do on television and in the movies. Will they? Won’t they? And then they finally do, and they’re happy forever. Gimme a break. Nine out of ten of them end because they weren’t right for each other to begin with, and half of the ones who get married get divorced anyway, and I’m telling you right now, through all this stuff, I have not become a cynic, I haven’t. Yes, I do happen to believe that love is mainly about pushing chocolate covered candies and, y’know, in some cultures, a chicken. You can call me a sucker, I don’t care, because I do believe in it. Bottom line is: it’s couples who are truly right for each other wade through the same crap as everybody else, but the big difference is they don’t let it take them down. One of those two people will stand up and fight for that relationship every time. If it’s right, and they’re real lucky, one of them will say something
I and love and you - the avett brothers
Been listening to this song on repeat
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[Flash 9 is required to listen to audio.]River City Extension - South For The Winter
I packed my bags and it’s been hard to go
but I am sick of your love and I am sick of this snow
I’m going south for the winter
South for the winter this yearLilly thank you so much for introducing me to this band <3
Love them. This song was actually my life last winter, and is one of my favorites
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I am thin now. Thinner than I have ever been before. I am smaller than I was in sixth grade. Smaller than I was when I was anorexic. Smaller than I was a year and a half ago, post breakup, when I was barely eating, and everything I did eat I threw up.
This did not happen on purpose. When I started work, I started walking six miles a day, five days a week. Plus weekend walks with parents, plus endless supplies of healthy food, made me drop weight pretty quickly.
I didn’t realize how thin I had gotten until I went to Detroit, when my parents started commenting on my weight, when my boyfriend told me how small I had gotten.
I’m thin now. I wear a size 4, sometimes a size small. I fit into Allison’s size 2 jeans, the ones she had outgrown. But my hair and skin still look good, people tell me I look good, small but good. Thin but good.
My boyfriend likes bigger women. Not fat per se, but curvier, bigger women. Christina Hendricks over Megan Fox. he’s a big fan of asses and tits. When we started dating, I was the thinnest girl he had dated. I’ve shrunk about two sizes since then.
I worry sometimes that he’s not as attracted to me anymore. I asked him about it after detroit if i needed to gain weight, and he told me I looked good, but he would very happy if I gained about ten pounds. He’s said he’s surprised he is so attracted to me, because I’m so small, and I have zero ass.
I can’t gain it back though. I like my new size. I like feeling small.
But I love my boyfriend.
My shitty week
1. My sister is sick. My little, I want to protect her, i would do anything for her, sister, is very sick. She is having surgery on Monday, and hopefully that will help, but she then has surgery recovery
2. I’m very sad and upset about this, but I get shut down whenever I talk about this with my parents. I think it’s because they are trying to protect me. I’m not allowed to go to her surgery. I can’t be there for her. I was a complete and total mess last night, but luckily with the suggestion of a friend, I actually talked to my sister about it, and she is just a trooper. And she actually helped me and calmed me down.
3. Oberlin was great, but also had some shitty exhausting parts, included being locked outside my medicine with a headache for 45 minutes in the cold, babysitting alex on acid which had fun parts and really shitty parts, mismatched libidos which sucked, and just dealing with the whole being back thing
4. I have spent the last several days at work either doing, or filling in for the main secretary. Which means that I get called and yelled at a lot.
5. My Aunt and Uncle, who I’m not fans of, are coming this weekend.And staying at our house
6. I have been accepted to serve in the Peace Corps in South Africa in January. Which is fantastic…but also very scary and unknown. It’s a thing. And Im trying to figure it out.
But thankfully, I have amazing friends and an amazing boyfriend who have been really great with helping me deal with all of this, and this week is over. And I’m going to leave work early and get ice cream. Because that’s how im rolling today.
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